25 Dec, 2013

I want a perfect life, perfect relationships and perfect moments of my life as a perfect person for whom I will feel happy for every moment of myself and proud of my self.

I want to be neither talkative nor dumb… but want to make everyone around me happy for me… they must crave to hear me… they should be anxious to my voice…! But every one should be happy with me…! My life should not be dramatic but totally realistic and happy that everyone should envy for that… they must feel to be with me…! I hate religious contradictions and comparisons… I love every religion I would love to bow my head in every temple, church or masjid… I m not at all against any love marriage nor I am in favor for arrange marriage… I just feel that in my own case I have hand over my life into my parents hand as long as my husband won’t step in my life… and so even a right to take decision to select a right better half for me is also I have given to my parents… but since the moment my husband will stepped in my life I will give my life into my husband’s hand… and will hold his hand to fulfill his life and dreams along with mine too together…! I would love to be with him on every stage of the life… to love him and to care him… in exchange I expect to get his infinitely love, care, to be in his thoughts, with smile on his lips with my presence around him, and to get his loyalty towards his relationship with me…! My parents has fulfilled my wishes, they have taught me as much best as they can… and the most precious lesson from them to me is 100% principle oriented person with all the important morals of the life…!

I don’t want to be lazy at all… even I will raise by age I want to be young forever not by look but by inner youth and strength in body…!

I love my special angelic and gifted siblings J marnie cum manu, adi cum hasru and shalu cum my fulbaji as much as I do love kanha…! They have made a different meaning to my life… and I m so lucky to get them in my life…! Also I love HB di… knowingly or unknowingly I have found a wonderful lady cum elder sis to whom I really do trust from core of my heart…! Her simple and shyly silentness has won my heart… and I love her so much J

Kadhi kadhi naa khup tension yet! Kalatach nahi ki what is life?

So many dreams, so many hopes and so many ambitions!

I laugh but don’t know if is it really joy? I never felt like that!

I had been feelings as if the love means that is the miracle, that someone comes infront of eyes at a perfect moment at the first and eyes meet each other and smile appears on the lips, and heart and mind both understands that yes he is my soulmate since so many live that none can even predict! J

But no! my first experience in life had given me a strong experience that it is not at all the love! To get a true love who belongs in our life is not so easy! But then I yet feel that ‘ok! No problem! That’s even ok! Just I wish one thing is that god should bring that someone so specially in my life that my heart should dance with rhythm of his heart beat!  My every dream should come true, and my every fear should let go! I love manu, hasru and shalu, and I wish that my husband should easily accept these relationships in my life as his relationships also! And should support me and should be a most amazing member of my MAST! I should never feel fear that with the thought that what he will think if I will tell him about these three or so many other dreams in my life!’

Khup kahi karaychay… khup kahi milawaychay… deva mala right way dakhaw! Mazya parivarache rakshan kar! Manu, shalu , aai ani sagle lok to whom I love core of my heart naa sagle mast healthy rahu de! Shalu cha health problem purn pane solve hou de!

Pn kadhi hi… kuthe hi aamhi asu naa tari aaj ji bonding I have with these three ti ashich rahu de! Ni kanha…. Please tyala jara bolaychi echha nirman kar… let him share his feelings freely with me! Kahi kalat nahi ki to kay vichar karat asto! Kay chalu aste tyachya dokyat!

Deva mala ni kanha la ashi buddhi de naa ki aamachya aai papa naa kadhi khali maan nako ghalayla lagayla amchya kontyach act mule! Tyanchi image naa steadily honorable rahu det in this world! Khup kahi karaychay but aai papa naa kadhi hurt nahi karaychay! I know my relationship with manu, hasru and shalu are not at all easy for anybody to digest but te mazya peksha chote aahet! asa kuni perfect life partner in my life yeu det atta ki jo mazya manat hya 3 wishayi kitti respect aahe te kalu det tyala! Ni tyala sagle reason that why I really love and respect them 3 like this much te neet eikun ghaychi, samjun ghyaychi buddhi de! Maza husband naa agdi asa asawa jashi tapsvi kaki ni pratap kaka nchi pair madhe understanding in bonding aahe! Mazya aai papa madhle prachand trust tar already test zaliy with that one biggest storm in my life! but along with trust for each other, ek gosht extra aahe tapasvi kaki ni pratap kaka chya relationship madhe, aaji-aajoba chya relationship madhe…. Ti mhanje equality! Which makes their pair more beautiful in my eyes! Means kaka naa ase kadhi watat nahi that he is husband and so he have more rights and kaki should treat him with more respect and he should control her life! they are the best friends first before husband and wife! And this thing is really makes me feel so special about their bonding! And obviously other matters are essential in happily married life… the love, te prem express pn karayla hawe aste kadhi tari to let the partner understand that what feelings they have for each other! Not matter kay age aahe… prem ni shraddha asne naa khup garjechi gosh taste about husband and wife relationship!

These days when I watch every couple, I studies them! Ni unknowingly try karat aste, that what exactly they come to realize that they are mean for each other? Obviously just handsome face pahun tar nakkich ase watat nahi ki we are made for each other! Kahi tari aste je ki make it feel as if they are mean for each other! Ni jar he judgment wrong zale tar that wedding fails! But i can’t even bear that thought ki maze wedding kadhi fail jawe! No! never!

Deva tula je experience dyayche te de! But jya wyakti shi maze engagement and wedding hoil naa to asa unique piece in this world asu det ki jyachya entry ne maze life naa kharo khar perfect hou de! Ni I am ready to be with him as his shadow forever! Tyache aims, maze aims ek mekana perfectly purak asu de! Aayushy badlun takaychay mala! Nahi rahaychay hya kanatal wanya life madhe! Maze dreams naa kabij karun ek perfect life banawaychey mala! Ek ase life jyache mi dreams karte! Money tar obviously aim nahiye for my life, but one strongly needed supporting material aahe to make my life perfect and my dreams complete! Mi jar kunala tari madat karu echhite, jara kunache tari life badlawu echhite tar surely tya lokanchya nourishment ani care sathi, tyanchya daily needs fulfill karnyasathi I need money! Without money nahi kahi dreams complete hot!

Surely never run behind money but ashi pn situation nako yayla in life ki aaplya dreams naa purn karanya sathi kuna samor tari apeksha karayla lagel! Kadhi hi wel deva yeu nako deus in my life that I would feel that need! Mala saksham kar! Mazya husband la ni mala aamchya ek meka sathi perfect kar!

Mi prachand lajte! Kadhi kuna samor kahich easily bolu nahi shakat and so I felt a way of writing these ffs perfect, where i could put my feelings through the characters I describes!

Deva mala kharach in different cast kahi wishwas nahiye! Tu kontya rupat aahes te pn kahi farak nahi padat! Ni I love u in every religion, every cast, in every community! Tu church madhe raha, mashjit madhe raha ki mandir madhe… just hear me out is my wish! Ani I really want husband who will have same feeling about you! And not at all just typical hindu who bows his head only and only infront of temples and utters something against other religious sacred places! I hate that sort of people more than anything else! B’cos I am the person who believes in god in every life around me and not at all in just dead stones! So let perfect one step in my life devi mate!