Most amazing day of my life....
had begun with most problematic things and making me angry and frustrated... that
had begun with most problematic things and making me angry and frustrated... that
Today: Most amazing day of my life...]
had began with worst things... and ended into giving me amazing feelings...
I don't know what i felt... was pity or was i sad? but i had tears in my eyes on hearing abt his life...
With great efforts i turned my face immediately away from his mom's gaze yet i know she had noticed my glassy eyes over flooded with tears...!
the whole atmosphere was totally heavenly... full of pinkish, orange and golden colors scattered around the sky... cool evening breeze of winter was peeping in to touch my face... and a beautiful song of "Bagban" was running in my ear filling my sense with beautiful feeling...! I was just feeling as if, i should be thankful to god for creating such a beautiful world like heaven around and offering me an opportunity to enjoy that beautiful heavenly moment with my most favorite loneliness...!
and the sit beside me was empty...!
one stop came and i just turned my gaze to the direction of passengers as a normal... i was known that someone of them will surely allocate that empty space beside me now...!
few men stepped in and then i saw a young good looking lady stepping in with a little figure wrapped in white shawl against her shoulder and her little daughter of 7 to 8yr age walking forward giving way to her mother...!
I don't know why... but i felt to immediately put my purse on sit beside me and when some man asked me "may i sit please?".... i pointed at the direction of lady and said "no uncle... sorry that lady is going to sit...!"
that lady seen me from door only and i could sense her face had glow just within that moment when she notice me pointing to her...! *i had felt such a amazing joy in my heart that moment on watching her glowing face for my act, that yet even now i m smiling on remembering it"
then her little cute daughter sat beside me and i gave a bit more space to her mom by purpose with the thought might her baby is looking seek...!
whole journey for a long while i was silent and just listening music to subside my travelling tiredness with closed eyes...!
but then in one moment... i heard... someone talking to that lady...!
just with curiosity i took off my ear phone and hear their talk... she was saying... "he is boy...! he is not able to watch since his birth...! he was just of 6 months when motibindu surgery was done on him...!"
her words made me so shocked and sad... that i just felt to touch that boy's cheeks...! he was so beautiful... and damn cute... with his tiny hands he was doing some sort of noise in his mouth...!
I just purposely touched his cheeks, and he turned his neck with that touch... and i forget to even turned my eyes off him... his beautiful face was just lagging in one thing... his eyes were totally whitish...! i felt so hard to feel that moment...!
his mom noticed pain in my eyes... and she said... "surgery had been carried out on his eyes when he was just of 6months at mumbai...! and doc has said he could watch in future...! now he is of 5yrs... i hope very soon my baby will be able to watch...!"
that mother's words were making my mind and heart bleeding badly...!
then unknowingly i asked "then what that surgery had shown effect on him? didn't it worked out?"
she just cuddled and cared that boy's hairs with affection... and said "he could now just feel light... he reacts on watching lights... but nothing else...! he can't even say what he watch or what not...!"
I asked unknowingly"why? yet he has not learned to speak?"
and i could sense... that lady was feeling hard to answer my question...! but yet with smile she answered me "He is not able to hear too...! he is deaf...! and so he can't even speak...! he is dumb also...!" i was unable to believe my years at that moment... and her further words were like even crown of the pain... that... "he has alot of problems since his birth...! he has hole in his heart...!"
I was not able to control my tears in that moment...!
inspite of my effort to not to show off my tears to his brave mother... i failed in controlling my glassy eyes... and in the next moment before tears could get path out of my eyes i turned my face away from her and tried to wipe off my tears...! but on meeting her gaze after that moment i could sense... she had seen my tears already...! I hate hate hate for that failure...! b'cos i know, his mom was brave lady and unknowingly my tears had given her feel of sympathy in my heart to her...! and i was not at all willing to break her with my those tears...!
but whatever it is.... her further nice talk with me made me feel like i done a nice thing in my life today by giving just a place to sit her...! she felt so happy in her heart at that only moment...! and at the last when i was just about to stepped out of the bus at my stop... she said me "listen to me..."
i looked at her with puzzled gaze...!
she said "My son Chaitany has so many problems b'cos i had not been vaccinated with Rubela...! so if you can... plz do vaccination... every girl after 15yr should be vaccinated with RUBELA"
I just felt to smile and say "Thank you!"
Her daughter finally with a wide smile said "Bye bye didi" and i again failed to control tear in my eyes... so finally i immediately stepped out of the bus so that she should not be able to watch those tears in my eyes...!
.had began with worst things... and ended into giving me amazing feelings...
I don't know what i felt... was pity or was i sad? but i had tears in my eyes on hearing abt his life...
With great efforts i turned my face immediately away from his mom's gaze yet i know she had noticed my glassy eyes over flooded with tears...!
the whole atmosphere was totally heavenly... full of pinkish, orange and golden colors scattered around the sky... cool evening breeze of winter was peeping in to touch my face... and a beautiful song of "Bagban" was running in my ear filling my sense with beautiful feeling...! I was just feeling as if, i should be thankful to god for creating such a beautiful world like heaven around and offering me an opportunity to enjoy that beautiful heavenly moment with my most favorite loneliness...!
and the sit beside me was empty...!
one stop came and i just turned my gaze to the direction of passengers as a normal... i was known that someone of them will surely allocate that empty space beside me now...!
few men stepped in and then i saw a young good looking lady stepping in with a little figure wrapped in white shawl against her shoulder and her little daughter of 7 to 8yr age walking forward giving way to her mother...!
I don't know why... but i felt to immediately put my purse on sit beside me and when some man asked me "may i sit please?".... i pointed at the direction of lady and said "no uncle... sorry that lady is going to sit...!"
that lady seen me from door only and i could sense her face had glow just within that moment when she notice me pointing to her...! *i had felt such a amazing joy in my heart that moment on watching her glowing face for my act, that yet even now i m smiling on remembering it"
then her little cute daughter sat beside me and i gave a bit more space to her mom by purpose with the thought might her baby is looking seek...!
whole journey for a long while i was silent and just listening music to subside my travelling tiredness with closed eyes...!
but then in one moment... i heard... someone talking to that lady...!
just with curiosity i took off my ear phone and hear their talk... she was saying... "he is boy...! he is not able to watch since his birth...! he was just of 6 months when motibindu surgery was done on him...!"
her words made me so shocked and sad... that i just felt to touch that boy's cheeks...! he was so beautiful... and damn cute... with his tiny hands he was doing some sort of noise in his mouth...!
I just purposely touched his cheeks, and he turned his neck with that touch... and i forget to even turned my eyes off him... his beautiful face was just lagging in one thing... his eyes were totally whitish...! i felt so hard to feel that moment...!
his mom noticed pain in my eyes... and she said... "surgery had been carried out on his eyes when he was just of 6months at mumbai...! and doc has said he could watch in future...! now he is of 5yrs... i hope very soon my baby will be able to watch...!"
that mother's words were making my mind and heart bleeding badly...!
then unknowingly i asked "then what that surgery had shown effect on him? didn't it worked out?"
she just cuddled and cared that boy's hairs with affection... and said "he could now just feel light... he reacts on watching lights... but nothing else...! he can't even say what he watch or what not...!"
I asked unknowingly"why? yet he has not learned to speak?"
and i could sense... that lady was feeling hard to answer my question...! but yet with smile she answered me "He is not able to hear too...! he is deaf...! and so he can't even speak...! he is dumb also...!" i was unable to believe my years at that moment... and her further words were like even crown of the pain... that... "he has alot of problems since his birth...! he has hole in his heart...!"
I was not able to control my tears in that moment...!
inspite of my effort to not to show off my tears to his brave mother... i failed in controlling my glassy eyes... and in the next moment before tears could get path out of my eyes i turned my face away from her and tried to wipe off my tears...! but on meeting her gaze after that moment i could sense... she had seen my tears already...! I hate hate hate for that failure...! b'cos i know, his mom was brave lady and unknowingly my tears had given her feel of sympathy in my heart to her...! and i was not at all willing to break her with my those tears...!
but whatever it is.... her further nice talk with me made me feel like i done a nice thing in my life today by giving just a place to sit her...! she felt so happy in her heart at that only moment...! and at the last when i was just about to stepped out of the bus at my stop... she said me "listen to me..."
i looked at her with puzzled gaze...!
she said "My son Chaitany has so many problems b'cos i had not been vaccinated with Rubela...! so if you can... plz do vaccination... every girl after 15yr should be vaccinated with RUBELA"
I just felt to smile and say "Thank you!"
Her daughter finally with a wide smile said "Bye bye didi" and i again failed to control tear in my eyes... so finally i immediately stepped out of the bus so that she should not be able to watch those tears in my eyes...!
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