29 sept, 2013

my heart is beating... dhak... dhak... thank you god...

I love the way manu has wrote these beautiful words on the occasion of heart day today...! :) 


“Laugh, even when you feel too sick or too worn out or tired. 

Smile, even when you're trying not to cry and the tears are blurring your vision. 

Sing, even when people stare at you and tell you your voice is crappy. 

Trust, even when your heart begs you not to. 

Twirl, even when your mind makes no sense of what you see. 

Frolick, even when you are made fun of. 

Kiss, even when others are watching. 

Sleep, even when you're afraid of what the dreams might bring. 

Run, even when it feels like you can't run any more. 

And, always, remember, even when the memories pinch your heart. 

Because the pain of all your experience is what makes you the person you are now. 

And without your experience---you are an empty page, a blank notebook, a missing lyric. 

What makes you brave is your willingness to live through your terrible life and hold your head up high the next day. So don't live life in fear.

Because you are stronger now, after all the crap has happened, than you ever were back before it started.” 

― Alysha Speer

24 sept, 2013

NONE has a perfect life in this world...!

Everyone has pain in this world...! NONE IS WITHOUT TROUBLE, PROBLEM, SORROW, PAIN IN THIS WORLD.

Don't know why? 
But i have thought alot about the everyone's live...! i had been thinking that only i have that much pain and sorrow, and problems in my life and that there are few people around the world who are fully with perfect life of joy and happiness around...!

But i accept today that there is none in this world who is 100% happy and whose life is genuinely perfectly...! 

In my life i have tension, and sorrow about my mom's health, my dad's health...!
in tatya uncle's life everything was perfect but then aunty's white spots makes him sad every single time...!
In mama's family, mama's leg blockage makes his and everyone's mind sad...!
In bhausaheb mama's life prafull's nature and thought about prafull's future makes him worried...!
In mai's life uncle's parallesis attack has made her life miserable...! 
In dada uncle's family, aunty's heartless nature makes him sad...!

I had been thinking that manu's family have perfect life...! but no...! not even her family has the perfect life...! Gaurav dada's death and then manu's health problems have made her family worried and sad...!

Shalu's family is not also 100% perfect...! Shalu's disease has made her and her family's life sad...!

then finally on studying lives of my lovely people... finally i have came to realize that when bhagwan Ram had even gone for wanwas... then we are humans...! how could our lives be without pains? sorrows? and troubles? 

it's rule of nature that none is in this world with 100% perfect and happy life...! everyone has some where problems in their lives...! and so, its best to keep fighting against these troubles with smile all the time on lips...! 
But one thing is clear... that the problems, sorrows are the only best teachers and guides to teach morels of life, to give right lessons, to show the difference between true and fake relationships, to teach the definition of extreme joy when we wins in the battles against the problems and hard times in our lives...!

so, god... i am not saying that don't give me troubles... but i just wish give me strength to fight against them... give me strong mind to take appropriate decisions, and please make me win at the last of this battle... but please never take away my lovey people... because i think nothing in this world is gonna brought those precious souls back to me... and i love them all... i m ready to face any hard situation but please keep my lovelies always happy, safe, and healthy...! please make my mama, my uncles, aunty, manu, shalu good and healthy...! oh dear lord please give us the strength to fight... make us strong with the love for each other...! 

we want your love dear god... to keep our lovelies and love for them safe and permanent...! 

14 Sept, 2013

I am not sure that whether I should put up my thoughts on some media like notebook or diary or anything like that...! it's my 3rd attempt to write dairy... don't know upto how long i would be really interested in it...!
but the dairy which my lovely brother has gifted me is such a lovely thing with me that i was scared off not to spoil with unwanted things...! i have wrote just few pages of it... but those are very mysterious and secrete... i wish when i will die, my brother should read it... but as long as i am alive... i don't wish that ever anybody should read it...!
i have got 3 beautiful more siblings in gift by god along with biological one...! but yet... inspite of having such a 4 lovely siblings with me... i feel something is incomplete...! i feels like may be he will be my husband aka my better half who would be only able to complete me...! but i am too much confused with the matter of selection of perfect life partner for me that i have tremendous ambitions with me, after 12th standard, every single day of my life has changed tremendously that i really don't know that will my better half be really able to complete me? will he be as per what i expect? will he be with me to fulfill my ambitions? i was expecting for a perfect life partner with me who will have everything what i want...! but don't know... whether he will be really that everything what i expect with him?

i want that he should have that special quality with him which will make him perfect in my eye... will make me believe that he has all the abilities to make me satisfied and he is the only person who could complete me, be lifetime partner to walk on the way to complete my ambitions... and our hearts are so united that we could complete our dreams together in most perfect way...!

now till today my life was with my parents, siblings and other relatives, friends...! but even if they will be with me throughout of my life... yet now someone who will be really understand my heart and will never misunderstand me is needed badly with me...!

i am really confused and shyly about the matter of love, marriage, all that sort of things...! but he must be such a confident and perfect one who will really make me stable and will really took me with him on the perfectly right way...!

i want to hold his hand, and create a beautiful heaven around me along with him to make his life perfect, to be with him on every situation, to shower love and care in my heart over him... and to make him happy in his life...!

i really wish the husband but not that own who will underestimate me, who will dominate me, who will control me, but that one who with be with me, who will rejoice me, who will make me feel proud for being called as his wife, who will keep me and house all the time happy with his naughty, lovely, romantic, sweet acts...! whose romantics talk will bring a beautiful pink shade on my cheek unknowingly and will make me feel to forget into his eyes...! whose eyes will reflect his true lovely, crystal clear and generous heart out of it easily...! his smile will not be just on the lips but into his eyes too... so that when i will look into his eyes automatically a smile will appear on my lips to...!
who will be only for me and none else...! whose mind will be with the thoughts of me and only me... and none else...! even if anything would happened in life... he will never leave a good track and will work hard to get out of that with best recreation again with the same passion, same enthusiasm...but will never walk on the bad way...!

i wish a person who will be really thoughtful... and will think with right approach to everything around him... and will happen in life...! will never make me feel embarrassed but will make me feel happy, right, satisfied and confidence...!

whose presence with me should create galaxy around me...! :) and he must say those beautiful three words in my ears softly while holding me against him every single night to sleep with peace for dreaming about beautiful tomorrow...!